Better of without?

Sometimes I feel like it has just happened.
Yesterday were the first day.
The excitment for a new feeling.
And it's like the end never existed.

I hate seeing the old pictures we "tried" to take.
And the new ones that shows me how far away I am.
I still cannot look straight into your eyes without tears start to come out.
I can't listen to those songs we used to sing together.
Specially the ones you sang so softly to my ear.

When I walk through the place we used to hang out for hours
I feel like there's no air to breath.
I still can see you sittin' there saying goodbye to me.

I've grown up much more without you.
But I've lost so much inside of me too.
I just wonder if I'll ever be ok.
Really ok.